Christine is the best person ever. |
& Sister Jensen
Her parting words to us were my favorite, "Just know that if you don't help anyone else on your mission, you have helped me." She just kept saying how much we have changed her life. It's crazy, I don't feel like I have done a lot. Really, the Lord has done it all, but has allowed Sister Wright and I to be part of her journey. We are so blessed. Thank you Heavenly Father for allowing us to labor among your children in Sidney and find pure joy in it.
Something BIG that I have learned this week is how to be okay with being perfectly imperfect. Sometimes, I get stressed out with feeling like I'm not a good enough missionary or that I'm not giving it 100% all the time. I so strongly desire to be the best missionary I can be. And a lot of the time I worry if I am fulfilling my potential. In fact, my whole life, I've strived to get 100% on everything. I've always set high expectations for myself and I've come to the realization that I often expect myself to be perfect. Well here's the thing, God doesn't expect me to be perfect. God knew that I wouldn't be perfect, and that's why He sent His son Jesus Christ. The Plan of Happiness is to help imperfect people learn, grow, and find joy. It wasn't made for perfect people. If we were all perfect, there would be no plan. So I've decided to stop worrying....stop practicing failure is what I like to call it now. All God asks of me is to be worthy and willing. I'm worthy. I'm willing. I'm me! God doesn't need me to be a perfect, cookie-cutter missionary. He needs me. He needs me for who I am. In fact, He has put His stamp of approval on me...my name tag! By the end of my mission, if I learn to be myself and be confident in who I am...it will all be worth it. When I get home, I want to be so different because I have found the real me. So, as I have been working to apply this into my mission, I have learned to love my mission. I just keep it simple. I keep it real. Guess what...people actually like talking to REAL people. I no longer just have good conversations about the gospel with people, but I leave the conversation with a new friend. I love it.
Russ and Connie. what what |
My next favorite miracle...Laura finally said a prayer! It was so sweet. We went out to lunch with her and right when the food was placed in front of us she just said a prayer so fast. At first I was like, "well that was fast" but then I realized she was actually praying so I got the biggest, goofiest grin on my face! Haha so great! With Laura this week, we have really focused on the Atonement. She expressed her desire to change, but not knowing where to start. I have actually been pondering this question a lot as well. I have such a desire to change and use the Atonement every single day of my life. Above my bed on a sticky note it says, "How have I used the Atonement today?" That was tricky for me to figure how I can use the Atonement every single day. So when I went on exchanges to Victoria, I asked Sister Jeppson. She said that to use it everyday, you have to UNDERSTAND it and you have to TRUST in it. Each day, I've been deciding to trust that my mistakes don't define me, but because of Christ and His Atonement, I can be better. I can move on. He knows best how to help me. (Alma 7:11-13). I not only have to believe in Christ, but I have to believe Christ. I have to believe what He has said.
I feel so happy about this week. I've made a difference. I feel like I have changed the world because I have changed someone's world.
Em with Sister Anderson (she's like everyone's grandma in the ward)
Con won and her pillow that Mom made for her
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